Saturday, April 22, 2017

Read This When Your Future Seems So Far Away

By Angelo Caerlang

There will be moments when you will get tired of everything. There will be days when you will look at where you’re standing and you will feel like you haven’t made any progress. There will be times when you will accidentally see your reflection in the mirror and you will realize how different you look.

You will wonder where the glow in your eyes went, and when the last time you smiled was. You will recall at which point the vibrancy in your face faded. Then you will quickly feel defeated by the thought of it all.

You will feel like life doesn’t make sense to you anymore. You will lose count of how many times you’ve worked so hard, and yet, still nothing seems to be paying off. You will be sick of waiting for something different to happen in your life, something that will make you believe in yourself again, something that will keep you going.

You will grow bored of your life. You will cry over things that frustrate you. You will feel dissatisfied with where you are. You will lay in your bed, staring at your ceiling, and thinking how stuck you are in your life, in your world. You will be stressed out at how future seems so out of reach, so off the distance, so far away.

But maybe nothing in life comes easy. Maybe you’re supposed to wait for better days, and for greater things, so you can appreciate the hard work and struggles you’ve endured on your journey to get to your dream destination.

Maybe timing is trying to make you learn the value of patience.

And timing wants you to realize that you’re not going to achieve everything instantly. Sometimes it takes months or years to finally get what you want, or to arrive to the place where you heart wants you to be.

And sometimes, you just have to learn to wholeheartedly accept your situation now, and know that one day, everything will change.

One day, the tides will turn and it will feel like the world is on your side.

You are going to realize that there’s no point in looking so far ahead of you, and hoping that things are different in your life. There’s no point in sitting, fantasizing, and wishing that you can fast forward to the future.

Because you will get there eventually. Your future will look brighter than you have ever imagined. And your future will turn out to be the one you’ve always been dreaming of.

But as for now, you need to focus on your present. You need to know how to improve and strive to get better. You have to figure out the kind of person you really want to be. You have to pay attention to your heart, and learn to listen to it more often.

You need to enjoy the moments that are happening in front of your eyes, right at this second, right at this moment.

Because you don’t want to look back one day and realize you’ve lost a lot of time worrying for the things that are yet to happen. You don’t want to arrive in the future unconditioned and unprepared. You don’t want to step into the future with regrets in your heart.

You have to trust time. Trust the unknown. Trust yourself. And just let things be.

Life has a weird, yet magical way of working itself out. The thoughts that consume your mind right now will become tiny and irrelevant in the future. The opportunities that you let go will be replaced by better ones. The person who broke your heart will no longer matter to you. And you will find out that the ache in your soul hasn’t killed you.

Because you’re strong. You are a survivor. You are resilient. You are smart enough to hold on to hope, to push against boundaries, and to never ever give up. And you’re continually learning to feel okay about waiting.

Monday, April 17, 2017

I'm A Failure

"Just as you thought at good things come to an end, that's when the new chapter began".

I posted a picture of me overlooking sunset in Ipoh with caption above.

It's not a gimmicky picture with a profound picture; in fact, a new chapter of my life is about to begin. This new chapter is a vast empty page which I do not have clue what it may hold for me. But somehow, I do believe this new chapter is necessary.

Who among us are so frustrate at the situation at this very moment that you want to start all over again hoping the next chapter will be good?

I decided to start new chapter because I believe I have hit the rock bottom. This rock bottom hits hard, really hard until it woke me up. I woke up from being lie to myself that everything will be okay. I lie to myself that this is not a failure. I lie to myself that the path that I'm taking is right.

But I have to face reality. Everything is not okay. Everything is a failure. The path I'm taking is not right.

This failure has taught me so much. It taught me confidence. It taught me what matters the most in life. It taught me to open my eye wide open to see what people truly are. It taught to be responsible for yourself and people around you. It taught me comparison with your friends are not useful. It taught me to be humble. Failure taught me that I have a strong will and more discipline that I had suspected.

Yes, I'm a failure. But it doesn't mean I will be a failure next month. To overcome failure is to admit your failure. From then, you will have determination to make a difference.

Failure meant stripping away of the inessential. From failure, you will know your essentials in life. Once you know the essentials in your life, you will take action to obtain it. You will take action to keep it. You will direct all the energy in life to obtain these essentials.

Failure meant to be true to yourself. Failure makes you stop to pretend to yourself that you were not anything other than what you were.

Failure doesn't mean you are worthless nor useless. Failure is inevitable in life. It is impossible to live without failing at something - unless you lived so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all.

The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are ever after secure in your ability to survive.

Don't blame yourself for the failures in your life. Accept it. Forgive yourself. You are meant for greatness. You are meant for more.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

It's Official

Can you believe it - I'm attached for real. 

Maybe I jinxed it coz I didn't plan to have a relationship this year. Never thought he would entered into my life like a summer breeze in the winter that I could barely could resist.

I'm really proud and grateful to have this wonderful person to have partner. He is kind, sincere and most of all, he really loves me. I guess this is more than enough for me.

And I'm glad that I'm attached as I will distance myself from the gay community. Really, I'm planning to quit circle for quite sometime. Why?

You would know better. This community is sick. Body, looks and materials rule the day. If you don't have one of these, you don't a place in this community.

So what's next? Work as usual and you will expect a lot of lovey dovey pictures from us. Nah, it's not my style. In fact, I never posted of my partner and I together. I don't know why. Maybe I do not people out there to validate my love for my partner. My love for him and his love for me is in the realm for both of us only. I'm sorry to say this but I feel like people who always post the pictures with their partners is like they are having some of insecurity problem which they need some sort of validation from third party to ascertain their relationship is fine. 

It's late but before I end my note, for those people who are lamenting loneliness and seeking high and low for a lover, let me tell you this, love comes for those who wait - you don't even need to find them. It will come to you naturally. 

Good night.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Tale As Old As Time

After much commotion, Beauty and The Beast is not showing in Malaysia after all.

Though our Censorship Board has given its green light to screen movie after removing the gay scene but Disney decided to pulls the movie entirely from Malaysian distribution. 

Before proceed further, below is the controversial gay scene. If you don't want to turn to gay or somehow you're just plain homophobic, please don't click play:

OMG, you're gay now! Yay! Bring in the rainbow and unicorn!

To be honest, I'm really disappointed that I don't have a chance to watch this movie. Beauty and The Beast is my favourite Disney classic. I watched like thousand of times when I was small. I remember there was a rerun in 3D in silver screen couple years back and I watched that too. The dancing scene was simply magical. This remake is like the most anticipated movie for me but it has been shelved off.

Though really disappointed but I could not agree more with Disney decision.

Like seriously, cutting out the gay scene doesn't make any difference. Gay people will still be gay with or without watching that gay scene. Gay and LGBTQA+ are is part of our society whether you like it or not. Removing the scene will not remove us from the society. Removing the scene will not make us silent, in fact, it will make us louder.

I really don't get it. The Imitation Game, starred by Benedict Cumberbatch, was able to make the cut in which the main actor is gay! Let me break it down what is gay; all the Apple products are gay because Tim Cook is gay. Facebook is gay since one of the co-founder Chris Hughes is gay. PayPal is gay since Peter Thiel, co-founder is gay. Don't wear Michael Kors, he's gay. D&G gay. Armani gay.

You see, you can't escape, we are everywhere!

One of the reasons that Disney is adamant with its decision, aside in supporting LGBTQA+, I guess this movie is a tribute to Howard Ashman and Disney did not want to ruin the story who meant so much for Ashman. So who is this Howard Ashman?

Apparently, the all time classic Beauty and The Beast by Disney was inspired by the AIDS epidemic. Lyricist Howard Ashman was behind some of the most moerable songs for the 1991 movie. And it turned out he has a powerful message about acceptance that may have gone unnoticed at the time.

According to an interview with Bill Condon, who directed the new live-action Beauty and the Beast, the original animated movie was partially inspired by Ashman's own battle with AIDS. The movie originally revolved much closely around Belle. But Ashman, who was just diagnosed with AIDS before product began, thought Beast needed more of a storyline.

For Ashman, this movie was a metaphor for AIDS. Ashman was cursed and this curse had brought sorrow on all those people who loved him and maybe there was a chance for a miracle and a way for the curse to be lifted.

Not only did Ashman shape the movie's romantic storyline but it was also his idea to make the movie a musical.

Ashman's struggles as a gay man living with AIDS in the early 90s can be heard in some of his lyrics.

"Kill the Beast" reflects the fear many people had toward people living with the disease and the alienation he felt as a result.

The lyric goes:

"We don't like what we don't understand, in fact it scares us, and this monster is mysterious at least. Bring your guns, bring your knives, save your children and your wives, we'll save our village and our lives. We'll kill the beast".

Ashman passed away on March 14, 1991. Just 4 days after the first screening of Beauty and the Beast. He won two posthumous Grammy awards. One of them was for his work on the song "Beauty and the Beast".

Ashman may also be behind Condon's decision to include an openly gay character.

Well, we shall move on and honor Disney's decision who has been supporting us. Let's reminisce our childhood once again with this beautiful song by Ashman:

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Orchid Collaborates with Watsons Malaysia to Announce Winners of First Ever Orchid ‘Be Yourself’ Competition

The first ever Orchid ‘Be Yourself’ competition finale rocked the house at Alamanda Shopping Centre in Putrajaya, as talented finalists gave their all as they out-acted, out-sang, out-danced and outshone each other to grab the chance of winning RM6,000 in total cash prizes, exclusive Orchid feminine wash products and the once-in-a-lifetime experience to star beside Orchid brand ambassador, Sazzy Falak, in a short firm produced by local production mega house Metrowealth International Group (MiG)!

In efforts to empower more Malaysian women to openly address the topic of intimate feminine hygiene, Orchid, an up-and coming feminine wash range, organized its first ever ‘Be Yourself’ competition, in conjunction with its #Malu?TakMalu! campaign which encourages women to join in the conversation.

Nabbing the first prize in the ‘Be Yourself’ competition finals is Hamiza Hanapi, 32, from Selangor, as Noor Lyianna Binti Akhir Rudin, 25, from Selangor took the second place. Coming in third place was Sharifah Norbaizura Binti Syied Mohd Safie, 32, also from Selangor. The competition was judged by, Malaysian TV Host, actress and Orchid’s brand ambassador, Sazzy Falak, Ms Tan Joo In from Orchid and Ms Carrol Tan from Watsons Malaysia.

The competition finale was joined by Watsons Personal Care Stores (Malaysia) Sdn. Bhd. (Watsons Malaysia), a Health, Wellness and Beauty solution retailer, operating with over 400 stores in Malaysia. To date, Watsons Malaysia carries 1000 brands ranging from medicines, health supplements, skincare, toiletries and cosmetics. Orchid’s products are available at Watsons, nationwide.

The diverse range of talents featured acting, singing, dancing, as well as a martial arts performance. The competition was a hit, with hundreds of entries received via Orchid’s social media pages. 12 individuals whom stood out were shortlisted, as they came a step closer to be in the running for money-can’t buy prizes.

The Orchid ‘Be Yourself’ contest ran on Orchid’s official Facebook page from May 30 to November 30 last year, and saw entries from many confident, modern and talented Malaysian women.

“These women have what it takes as performers – the talent, the showmanship and from what we can see there has been a fair amount of thought, planning and practice for those who excelled. However, the top three outdid the others through stage presence, confidence, audience interaction, showmanship and creativity. Overall the talent show was very impressive,” said Sazzy.

The Orchid Feminine Hygiene range contains nourishing and traditional cleansing ingredients such as Manjakani, Kacip Fatimah and Daun Sirih (Betel Leaf) that gently deodorizes, brightens and strengthens delicate skin, providing a balanced solution that caters to every skin type. The gentle formula is designed to enhance hygiene, comfort and intimate balance while helping to reduce itchiness and discomfort caused by imbalanced vaginal pH.

Orchid Feminine Wash is available in three variants of Intim, Romantis and Anggun.The femininely shaped 210ml bottles retail at RM4.75 each, and are available nationwide.

Product Manager, Household & Personal Care, Marketing Division of Lam Soon Edible Oils Sdn Bhd, Ms Tan Joo In said that the contest aims to encourage more women to step up and be empowered by their femininity rather than to be ashamed to address concerns that might be causing them to worry or to feel less confident.

“We are happy that more and more Malaysian women stepped up to join the conversation, and participated in the ‘Be Yourself’ contest. Aside from gaining confidence on a wider stage, those who engage could exchange information and we could establish a community of women who care about every aspect of being well-equipped with the knowledge of hygiene and general wellbeing,” said Ms Tan.

To find out more about the Orchid #Malu?TakMalu! campaign and the best tips on feminine hygiene, please visit

MOLPay Cash; The Next Big Thing

MOLPay Sdn Bhd, Southeast Asia’s leading payment solutions provider raises the ante in e-commerce market segment by introducing MOLPay Cash, the first and only Online-to-Offline (O2O) innovative payment, pioneering in Southern Asia.

MOLPay Cash is a way of payment for customers that prefer to explore online shopping, but has no online banking accounts or cards. This is also perfect for online frequents that prefer offline cash payment. MOLPay Cash works as an alternative way of paying your shopping cart without keying in your banking details into a webpage.

As 60 per cent of Malaysian consumers prefer cash payment method instead of through credit cards[if !supportFootnotes][1][endif], this payment channel will be one of the main attractions for online e-commerce businesses. The introduction of MOLPay Cash is also timely since Malaysians are very concerned about their cyber-safety and more hesitant to reveal their payment card details online even if their personal info are protected[if !supportFootnotes][2][endif].

One of the main reasons why MOLPay Cash users are doubling each month is because there is no fuss in using this payment channel. The users can skip the tedious steps for creating an online account as well as keying in personal data and banking details on an online portal. It is as easy as buying online, checking out, paying for purchased items at the nearest 7-Eleven store and waiting for the parcel’s arrival.

The collaboration between these two companies will give a 40% boost in sales for the local e-commerce businesses from huge corporation to SMEs through MOLPay Cash alone, as it serves the remaining 60 percent of the unbanked market. It is also seen as a way for online merchants to expand their reach to more Malaysian consumers, thereby allowing more revenue and greater value for their new and existing customers.

“MOLPay Cash is the Online-to-Offline (O2O) gateway for these e-commerce as well as m-commerce businesses, from established companies to small SMEs, to engage and seize the 60% of the market that prefer cash payment over online banking or cards. In order to get to them, these online businesses are in need for a new, better and a more innovative means of payment,” said Mr. Eng Sheng Guan, Chief Executive Officer of MOLPay Sdn Bhd.

“MOLPay Cash is set to provide greater value to our Malaysian e-commerce businesses as it will spur local SMEs which are still exploring other innovative payment channels to engage the rest of the underserved market. The convenience of MOLPay Cash will allow these businesses to reach out to customers and grow their customer base as they can pay by cash to the nearest 7-Eleven for their online purchases,” added Mr. Eng.

“So far, we are witnessing an astounding 80% hike in monthly transactions for MOLPay Cash across the nation and we are expecting growth of more than 150%.  This number can be achieved through proper integration, awareness and education of the existence of such channel where many online businesses have neglected”, Mr. Eng concluded.

How does it work?
Just like any other monetary transaction, a few simple steps are involved to complete a payment for an online purchase with a maximum of RM1,500 transaction per day for safety reasons.

The person making an online purchase from selected online portals can proceed to checkout and select MOLPay Cash as their payment method that will then send a request to MOLPay.

A transaction ID and verification code will then be generated and the said buyer is required to take their transaction ID and verification code to the nearest 7-Eleven outlet and make the payment.  Once the payment has been done, a receipt will be issued and the merchant will then be updated on your payment status.  The only thing left to do is to wait for your parcel to arrive at your doorstep.

MOLPay offers a 48-hours period of payment to buyers to clear their transaction at any 7-Eleven outlets nationwide before voiding the order made.

Monetary transaction has the upper hand in the sense of its operating time. Most, if not all credit or debit card transactions will be momentarily suspended from 12am until 4:30am to allow their banking system to update.

But that will not  be a problem with MOLPay Cash.  There 2,122 7-Eleven outlets nationwide, which means at least 150 outlets per state, operates 24-hours a day, everyday of the year.

For more information about MOLPay Cash and other MOLPay Sdn Bhd services, please visit

TOP with Micro Clean Tech™ Brings Next Level Cleaning Technology to Malaysia

TOP, the No.1 detergent brand in Malaysia is revolutionizing the Malaysian detergent industry yet again, with the introduction of its new breakthrough Micro-Clean Tech™ technology.

Tag lined ‘It’s not clean until It’s Micro-Clean’, the brand is encouraging consumers to attain next level, micro-cleaned laundry using its Anti-Sebum detergent technology.

Visible and Invisible Stains, Effectively Removed by TOP Micro Clean Tech™, Even from Fabric Cores
TOP Micro-Clean Tech™ detergent has innovative anti-sebum technology that pull out trapped sweat and sebum, as well as other trapped molecules from fabric cores. Trapped sweat and sebum molecules cause the yellowing of white and light coloured fabrics, and dullness of colored fabrics. These trapped sweat and sebum stains are also the main cause of the unpleasant odour around armholes, sleeves and collars, even after clothes have been laundered.

TOP Micro Clean Tech™ has been specially formulated to quickly and efficiently pull out trapped sweat and sebum, break them down to micro-size and prevent them from resettling on fabric.

Visible stains such as coffee, tomato sauce, chocolate and blood; as well as common Malaysian ‘tough stains’ such as sambal belacan and dark soy sauce are also easily micro-cleaned by TOP Micro Clean Tech™.

TOP Micro Clean Tech™ removes tough invisible and visible stains, easily!

Why TOP Micro Clean Tech™ Is The Detergent for Malaysians
TOP invests in research and development to seek out solutions to laundry issues to delight consumers and serve them better, through innovations and breakthroughs.

Many consumers have become resigned to the yellowing and dullness of laundered clothes that have been stored for long periods, the unpleasant odour of school uniforms and clothes used for exercising, or daily work with staining around the armholes, and the collar, and the frustration of bright coloured clothes that look dull after a few rounds of being laundered.

TOP’s researchers in Malaysia found that yellowing of white fabrics, and the dullness of bright fabrics, as well as unpleasant odours on laundered fabrics were issues that could be traced back to trapped sweat & sebum. They set out to create a solution to these issues that many consumers have accepted as inevitable.

TOP Micro Clean Tech™ provides a holistic, next level cleaning solution to almost all laundry issues, including these previously ‘unsolvable’ issues.

Malaysia is an equatorial country with high temperature, and humidity, year round. Sweating heavily is commonplace due to these factors. Our bodies naturally produce sebum or body oil, a light yellow, oily substance secreted by the sebaceous glands. We tend to produce more sebum when the temperature rises. Like sweat, sebum stains are notoriously difficult to remove using regular detergents.

TOP’s research and development team studied the problem of ground-in sweat and sebum, and developed a solution in the form of TOP Micro Clean Tech™ detergent technology to enhance consumers’ lifestyles and embrace a micro-cleaned lifestyle.

The Micro-Clean Tech™ detergent technology includes micro molecules that can penetrate deep to pull out and breakdown sweat and sebum from within fabric cores. The advanced formulation also ensures that sweat, sebum and other dirt molecules are well dispersed in laundry water to prevent them being redeposited onto fabric.

Just one wash with TOP’s Micro Clean Tech™ will revive and refresh fabrics. Expect laundry water to be murkier as sweat and sebum, as well as other stain-causing molecules are successfully and thoroughly removed.

The revolutionary formulation maintains the TOP Anti-Malodour and Anti Mite-dust detergent functionalities that Malaysians have come to know and trust from the brand.

Southern Lion Sdn Bhd Senior Marketing Manager, Ms Carmen Foo said that TOP continues to drive innovation with the purpose of giving consumers a better lifestyle in line with its brand promise of Innovation for Better Living. The brand invests in consumer insights to uncover real-life issues, and increase the performance of its products.

“Malaysian consumers had highlighted their most pressing laundry issues which our researchers traced to sweat and sebum.  We responded by developing the revolutionary Micro Clean Tech™ detergent technology, for TOP to lead the anti-sebum detergent market in Malaysia.

“As the proven market leader in the detergent category, TOP has continuously evolved to match Malaysian consumers’ needs over the years. The introduction of Micro-Clean Tech™ strengthens our position, while enhancing the lives of Malaysian” added Ms. Foo.

TOP Micro-Clean Tech™ is now available nationwide with a host of new variants that have been specifically developed, each with a unique fragrance to cater to the different needs of consumers. The new variants added to the liquid range includes the TOP Blooming Pleasures and TOP Odour Buster.

To reflect the breakthrough formulation inside, the packaging of the entire range has been uplifted to be sleekly modern to look at, and more ergonomic making it easier to pour, and seal.

Get micro-cleaned to experience ‘It’s not clean until It’s Micro-Clean’. 

As a consumer-focused brand, TOP Micro-Clean Tech™ offers a wide range of variants to maintain the texture and quality of your clothes.