So people are asking me whether i have any date for Valentine's Day. I'm single and there ain't no men out there who wanna date me. Sounds sad huh?
Nah, i'm not. I'm quite comfortable being alone on Feb 14.
I've been sleeping on my bed instead with my unshaved chin writing this lonely entry.
Anyway, it's rather entertaining to read other's Facebook postings lamenting how lonely and how sad they are since they gonna spend the Valentine's night without any date.
I used to be one of them. Crying and even emo over lonely Valentine. But now, i really no idea what's the hype about. I thought we should treat our another half consistently like every day basis with devotion and love. Why we need to be extra good and extra passionate on Valentine's Day?
I think you guys are pretty influenced or even pressured by the peers and money-grubber commercial monsters. Really, it's such a waste of time to queue/book for a table at restaurant and geez, why spending so much on chocolate, flowers and teddy bear. Love doesn't last long, why bother so much to pump in so much money.
Even if i have a partner, i don't think i would make Feb 14 as something so grand. Don't even think that i will buy any Valentine gift. Maybe that's why i'm still single coz there is no romance in my damn life.
I'm always the spectator of other people's romance. I'm not that lucky to have my own kinda romance.
I always wanted to explore the sentiment of romance with the person that i like but i never really have the chance. Well, i did - i spent my Valentine with my ex in Pulau Pangkor, romantic right? Romance will not guarantee for a long lasting relationship coz we broke up in the end.
Back to present, why not i date the person that i really like for Valentine?
I know he doesn't celebrate Valentine's Day. Furthermore, he is attached. Please don't awww for me.
So whenever i see him, i will fake a smile so that he won't see that i have been hiding so much inside. I hope the person that he is currently dating is beautiful. I'm dying of jealously, really, because that person has everything that i have to live without. That person should hold him tight and give all the love in the world because there is other person out there who is dying to be with him.
For Pete's sake, it's Chinese New Year. Don't get so emo.
Alright, so i end my entry with a love song by Siti Nurhaliza. I like her a lot!!! The song is Aku Cinta Padamu ( I love you). I know it sounds cliche but the song is one of my favourite Malay songs and i think that he knows why i choose this song.
Suasana sepi begini di hari kekasih, penahan rindu menusuk hati, tak mungkin kau sedari.
I would like to take this opportunity to convey my warmest wishes to my Chinese friends (and you reading this) who are celebrating Chinese New Year today.
As snake famed for its wisdom in Chinese culture, may this year we will be wise enough to tackle and to slitter through the challenges ahead of us in the Year Of Snake.
Please do enjoy yourself in this Chinese New Year as this will be the last major festival before we are heading to 13th General Election in MArch. I bet after Chinese New Year, the political bickering will be intensified for the final showdown.
Sorry, got carried away. So make this short, i end this auspicious entry on auspicious day with a Chinese proverb:
"A Wise man makes his own decisions; an ignorant man follows public opinion"
May you choose the path to succes like always! Kong Hei Fatt Choi!
Throughout our lifetime, dogs have been with us through our ups and downs. They are our comfortable huggable fluffy friend when we're having a tough day. They also bring us joy and laughter whenever they do their silly faces and tricks. They are also our guardian in keeping our home safe and sound.
They have been there for us but have we been there for them?
Ladies and Gentlemen,
Dogs are beloved and most pampered pet in Malaysia, however their friends in China are otherwise.
Although dogs (and cats alike) are increasingly taken as a household pet by middle class Chinese but millions of the mentioned animals are end up on the dining plate. Dogs especially are sold at markets daily across China. They are beaten to death, boiled alive, stabbed and strangled on the spot, and cruelly bound with wire and stuffed into sacks to be slaughtered at restaurants. Please spare us two minutes of your valuable time to watch this video.
Gruesome? The dogs featured in the video are just tip of an iceberg of the other million dogs which share the sad and cruel fate.
It's time for us to speak for them.
Though we could not stop this menace at once but please do join me and 80,000 people and counting who are voicing out at Nobody Touch The Dog - Stop Dog Cruelty and Tortures in China campaign. We are heading 1 million signatures petition to convey a message to Mr Obama and Mr Barroso in pressuring China to make this torture stop.
I guess my Chinese friends are pretty stressed up lately since the Chinese New Year is coming and they have to juggle between work and never ending preparation for CNY.
For me, it is pretty settle now. I did my spring cleaning over the weekend but still got lots to do to make my room sparkling clean. And thank God, i managed to trick my sister to shop for my CNY clothes, now only left a pair of shoes to complete my CNY shopping.
Sounds tiring eh? It is. Preparation for CNY is just a tip of an iceberg of the thing that i don't like for CNY.
I guess you also share the fimiliar dislikes about CNY
Hot weather
Praise the Lord that the weather has been kind to us lately. Remember few weeks back, we were like few inches away from the surface of the sun. I know it is a good gesture to wear new nice clothes on the first day of CNY but the brand new cotton will not have mercy on you.
Fat Ass
The word 'fat' has a good connotation for Chinese during Chinese New Year. Fat in Cantonese is "fei", so the auscipuos saying will be 'Kor Fei Nien" - Have a loaded CNY. Likewise, many try to avoid to be fei during CNY, esp me. Really, adding few pounds on the joyous occasion is invitable. Look, nothing is healthy on the dining table during the feast. Fried Nien Gao (Sticky cake), fried chicken, fried arrowhead, tang yuen (glutinous ball) and the list goes on.
The same old questions from relatives
When you're doing visiting, please prepare the answers on the repetative questions that will be forwarded by your relatives on every CNY.
For single: Got boyfriend/girlfriend ah?
Proposed answers: No time, career first / I'm gay / I'm lesbian / My elder brother still hasn't got any girlfriend also / I'm dating with your daughter
For attached: When you plan to get married?
Proposed answers: No time, career first / I'm gay, Malaysia doesn't allow gay marriage / I'm lesbian, Malaysia doesn't allow gay marriage / My elder brother still hasn't married / Your daughter is not ready to get married
For married couples who still don't have offspring: When to get baby? (blatantly ask)
Proposed answers: No time to take care of a child / Man and man cant produce / Girl and girl cant produce/ My elder brother still hasn't any child also / Your daughter is not productive
For married couples who have only on child : When to get another one?
Proposed answers: No time to take care of an another child / My elder brother got one child only, you ask him to get more first / Ask your daughter
The Feng Shui tips
Don't be shy, just admit it. You do browse or take notice on the CNY horoscope, don't you? Me too. I'm really curious what the Feng Shui masters say about my zodiac every year. There is saying in Chinese that goes 'Feng Shui master cheats you for eight or ten years". So no matter how good they say, it will end up in different way eventually, for me. Sometimes, too many sources on the horoscope -some say good and some say otherwise, it's pretty confusing you know. Tell you what, just believe in God.
Traffic jam
You know the homecoming trip for Chinese in China is the world largest's migration with over 220 million Chinese taking the train ride during festive period? In Malaysia, though the number is far more lover but it is estimated that the PLUS North South Expressway will be flooded with 1.4 million vehicles!
That's why, every year, going back to my hometown is like never ending journey. The traffic is disastrous! Usually, my journey back to Ipoh is just mere two hours but on the pre -CNY, my record is five hours!
The Protocol in addressing your relatives
My paternal family is huge in Penang, so sometimes i do not have any idea who they are though my mom has always been explaining to me like every year. So i will slow down my pace before saying hi to my relatives and check with my mom how to address them. The worst thing is the kids who supposed i'm related with- since when got little kids one? Where do they come from?
You're aging
This coming year will be the year of snake. Please don't recall what you did in the previous snake year, it was 12 years ago! The animal zodiac is not cute at all. They serve as a recalling factor on what you did 12 years ago, 24 years ago, perhaps 36 years ago. You know what, you're getting older each and every CNY.
No matter how bad i lament about CNY but this is why CNY is so special. You don't really care be drowning in sweat with your new clothes during visiting because it is a good sign to kick start a brand new year with brand new clothes. You don't really care on how fattening the food on the dining table because calories come second, the joy of sitting down together with family and friends and have a heartwarming meal is priceless. You don't really care on the repetitive questions directed by your relatives because you know they really want to catch up with you since the last met. You don't really care you're aging because one year older is one year wiser and you're more successful than last year. You don't really care how bad the traffic is because you know that your father and mother are waiting for you at home for the reunion dinner.
Let's end my note with one of my favourite childhood CNY songs. P/S Danny Koo is really cute.
Recently, some people said that my body look rather fit. I've got to admit this. I have been training at home secretly. Doing sit ups and push ups almost like everyday.. Well, i'm not shy to reveal my body now.
Ladies and Gentlemen, behold, the hottest body ever!
Sorry to say, the picture above isn't my body. I just randomly grab it from Jack D'.
Trust me, i don't have that kinda body. In fact, nobody will be attracted by my physical body attributes. My body frame is rather small and my shoulders are rather steep and i think i have little tummy. Come on, tummy is inevitable for all men out there. It's hard you know, though i can resist eating but the baby inside my tummy has to eat also right?
So i have been thinking to join gym. Actually i have been thinking about this for few years now.
Yeah, i do get jealous sometimes that when i come across boys/men with hot body. My jealousy will trigger my craving in which eventually those bodies i crave for will end up on my bed. Just joking.
Hitting the gym is a good thing - exercise to maintain a healthy body and to build my body. And that's the only good thing about gym.
And here is the bad thing about gym.
First of all, it's expensive. I'm not a rich boy and i barely make ends meet. If not mistaken, the market rate for membership today is close to RM 200 (or more) per month. In long run, it sums up to RM2,400 per year. I can do a lot of things with that amount of money.
I never really step into the gym before but i heard a lot of stories about gym. Yes, it is infested with gay men. The more i hear, the dirtier my perception is on the gym. Apparently, the shower rooms are just covered by shower curtain and sometimes, the sicko gay men will open the shower curtain while you're bathing in the pretense that they didn't know that the shower cubicle is occupied. And that's it - your birdy is exposed.
And apparently, they do blow job (or anal intercourse) in the shower cubicle itself! WTH? That's my fantasy!! I mean, they should get a room!
Really, my friends have their own stories to tell right after gym. Like who's the hottie today and who's looking at who and who is flirty with whom. The clean and healthy essence of gym is eclipsed by gay men and turn the sacred healthy place to a gay cruising hot spot now.
Sounds vulnerable to go to gym right? I wonder what will happen if i ever hit the gym.
I think i will lose my discretion with so many hotties there without knowing their names. I bet my head will get confused and it will be hard for me to obey on what shouldn't do at gym. Hard to resist, so touchable, too good to deny it. I bet every day will be a cheery chap stick - feels so wrong but it feels so right.
While i writing this entry, my mind keep flashing this scene from The Simpsons where Homer is bringing Bart to steel mill to 'straighten him' from being gay:
Chinese New Year is just barely two weeks to go and i haven't done any single thing.
New clothes, new haircut, new shoes, CNY dinner arrangement and booking for CNY class gathering are all still left unchecked. Alright, i try to get it done by next week, i hope.
I remember last year, it was few days before CNY, i only started my CNY shopping and gosh, it was so packed! Maybe i should start earlier this year. Anyhow, i'm not extravagant for CNY, gonna be penny pinching this year for bigger plan later in the year; perhaps two shirts, few Mickey T-shirts and few pants, two pairs of shoes will be enough for me. Maybe i should join the common gay style in wearing Abercrombie & Fitch in the year of snake.
Since CNY is around the corner, i believe you would have been bombarded with the CNY songs on the radio. You like it?
For me, i'm in the realm of somewhat.
Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of being a Chinese and i'm not poking any jokes of my own race, i'm just telling what it is.
Don't you think modern CNY songs are putting Chinese in negative position? Though I'm not good in Mandarin but almost CNY songs nowadays got the word "Fatt" (wealth) or "Fatt Tah Chai" (abundance of wealth). Are Chinese that greedy and money minded?
I think so. Come on, for my Chinese readers who are reading this, don't tell me your parents didn't tell you this line when you were small "When you grow up, you have to earn a lot of money".
To be honest, i prefer Christmas songs because it is more sentimental and relates to the bonding with the family, love, Jesus, Santa Clause and presents...wait a minute, presents? Christmas and CNY share the common theme of materialism - it's all boil down to money.
I think the best festive songs is Raya songs, really, there are simple -describing gratefulness to have the Raya together and the scene of Hari Raya like go back to hometown, respect the elderly and the festive delicacies.
Anyway, back to CNY songs. Throughout my 20 plus years span of CNY celebrations, the lyrics of CNY are still the same and never ever gonna change. Come to think of it, i could write my own CNY song though i don't know Chinese. Just put these words/phrases will make a good CNY song: abundance of wealth, good health, job advancement, longevity, good grades in studies, fire crackers, give me ang pows (red packets with money) - there you go! Really, i still love those older version (way older) of CNY songs. You may call me an old fag but those songs are so pure and so simple and yet so beautiful. Like this one below,
Ta Di Hui Chun 大地回春 (welcoming spring in motherland).
The singer is serenading the scene of spring (the beginning of spring marks the first day of CNY)
"Welcome spring back to earth.
Butterflies dance light and gracefully. Buzzing bees collect pollens. Lovers ramble in warm breeze. The colors of spring excite our feelings".
Let me take you back in time to 1956. This is one of my favourite classic CNY songs by Yao Li
姚莉 , 春風吻上我的臉 (Spring Breeze Kisses My Face)
"The spring breeze kisses my face. Tells me that it is now a spring day. Who says the lull of spring is an unconscious dawn? Only lazy young men sleep deeply. The spring breeze kisses my face. Tells me it is now a spring day. Although spring light is infinitely good. I’m afraid to grow old in front of it".
I think whoever CNY song writers these days should emulate the writers those days - it was so simple and so beautiful.
Aside for never ever change lyric, the small kids are utilized to sing CNY songs also along with the MV. My gosh, the kids are so ugly, the voice sucks big time and choreography is hardly synchronize. Kids, please have a nice set of teeth before shooting the MV. I wonder who will buy their CDs or DVDs. Their family members and friends? Or pedophiles perhaps. Just click below:
Hardly making money through singing CNY songs during younger days, why not try the luck once again when grow up. Let's dye the hair and skimpy dressed and dance at the temple like the two girls below:
For the love of God, why every CNY MV has to be shot at Temple Thean Hou in KL? That's the only temple in Malaysia?! I guess you have seen those singers wearing scarfs singing CNY songs before. Fashionable but 30 degree Celcius (or more) in Malaysia, they are asking for heat rash.
The only temple in Malaysia (courtesy from mangovine.net)
To me, My Astro team has the best group of artistes/dee jays/hosts to sing the CNY songs without any redundancy. And pretty catchy as well so i'm really anticipated every year. So I end this entry with the kids singing the medley of My Astro CNY songs. Trust me, these kids are far more better than the girls above:
Writing this entry while i'm waiting for my train back to Ipoh.
Demure right?
Not exactly. In fact, i barely sleep lately and i don't really care about my diet since my birthday was a feast of good food.
I had a fantastic birthday bash this year ( i think I'm gonna have minor celebration back in Ipoh as well).
Come to think of it, indeed, my life is surrounded by good friends. The term good is too decent for them. Let me rephrase, my life is surrounded by bitches - sounds better now.
Well, i do enjoy the spaces i have when i'm alone - alone doesn't mean i'm lonely. Whenever i want companions or help, my friends are always there for me. I know i can count on them.
Since i have so many bitches in my life, who needs a boyfriend or partner?
Seriously, i'm quite complacent with my life right now - why bother to find someone to mess up with my life? Getting a partner is not even in my resolution for this year.
Alas, when love comes, you can't handle it.
Though there are approaches lately, i don't really want to explore these opportunities. I know it sounds harsh but why waste your time and waste my time if i don't have the sparks.
There is no more spark for love anymore. I'm very reserved now. Or maybe i couldn't completely let go of someone.Or maybe those i'm interested are far far away.
Whatever it is, i know i have built the wall so high that no one could ever climb. Unless someone proves otherwise. And that someone will take my heart away, for sure. But take it off first before you climb, so i can see what's beautiful underneath of you.
Anyway, it's rather entertaining to read other's Facebook postings lamenting how lonely and how sad they are since they gonna spend the Valentine's night without any date.
