Likewise, I'm really sorry for him as I'm emo most all the time. I also don't know why this emo-ness shrouding me like everyday. Maybe I'm just a little flightless bird - everything that i wanted so much seems like out of reach for me. I do get envy sometimes for the things I don't have. Even though I have the capabilities but some shit will eventually happen so - no matter how hard i try, I'll go back to square one. If i were ever to start all over again, i hope people who are close to me can give their supports and not be judgmental from A to Z. I believe we only live once and time is short, why don't let me to try something new? A change will make you good sometimes.
It's really tired sometimes to find the reason to be truly happy. I miss the smile on my face - the true smile that engraved by my own happiness. Really, it's been awhile that I have that laughter. I'm not implying my partner is a dickhead for failing to give me happiness. He has always been the source of my happiness but my life could not be relying on him all the time for all those intangible needs.