Saturday, June 23, 2012

When love comes


I have no idea why some people just like to tease about singlehood.

I have been through heartbreak, disappointment and hurt but what I’ve got in return is just brouhaha and not even a single bit of a compliment to me for being tough.

I know I was dumped and fell in love with wrong guys along the way, whats up with that?  Maybe that’s why they have a reason to target me as a laughing stock.

Time really flies huh?

Without my realization, I have been single for nine months now. So how long should I wait for the next relationship to come?

I have no idea. Perhaps, I would stay single for a long period and even years, as relationship is not like simply buying a shirt in the shop. I know it is hard to deal with your feeling, trust me, you will be blinded and get carried away with feeling and that feeling will lead you to fall in love with the wrong person which eventually leads to heartbreak. Instead, it encompasses time to develop the understanding and the assurance that the person is the one that you have been looking for.

Gay circle is unfortunately flooded with shallow minds. I guess you and I also share the common experience that someone that barely knows you confesses to you to be your another half.

I really do get envy when I look at those lovey dovey pictures in Facebook. I always ask myself, why they are so happy, whereas for me I’m always the emo queen. Does fate favour them more or maybe God is testing my patience and He is saving the best for last for me?

Seriously, I have green eyes whenever I’m checking out those travelling pictures, they look so happy! Whereas for me, it’s disastrous as every planned escape for me will be broken promises. Really, to avoid empty promises, now I’m really considering to do travelling alone.

Anyhow, please don’t fall in love with a person that you barely know. Do consider people who have been there for you all along. Maybe they don’t have the pretty face but what matter the most is their sincerity right?

July is coming, so it is the month that someone will enter into my life or maybe he has always been in my life all along?

 I will be patiently waiting. Like the song by Sammi Cheng 
鄭秀文 不要驚動愛情 Do Not Disturb Love”
I love this song so much as it embraces both spiritual and love. Lucky me, I managed to find the lyric and its meaning in English.




很想輕撫
所以避開
寧願用距離
去令好奇
迴避過眼神
偷偷喘氣
吩咐手臂
放在原地
傳聞浪漫太快
愛戀都走得快
才會遲遲未步向
一世愛護
情太過洶湧像深海
而我卻會忍耐
但求來日醒過來
情像翅膀打開
還沒有相戀別意外
神教會我等待
待情流像細水
才去承諾
拿一生兌換愛
很想給擁抱
所以在禱告
求甜蜜以前
帶著慢步
遊歷過旅途
等一天終老
生老病死
一起細數
原來慢慢靠近
更珍惜這一吻
而我停留是為了
要給予護蔭
情太過洶湧像深海
而我卻會忍耐
但求來日醒過來
情像翅膀打開
還沒有相戀別意外
神教會我等待
待情流像細水
才去承諾
拿一生兌換愛
能為愛戀學習按奈
情信寄進心
但求能學會倚靠神
愛被馴服過更精采
連地老天荒亦不更改
時間永遠等待
情願那天
才去承諾
無止境那
我用沈默叫醒愛情
用期待做反應
繼續行近直至開始愛
I want to hold you
that’s why I avoided you
I rather use distance
to pique your curiosity
I avoid meeting your eyes
so I can catch my breath
I ordered my arms
to stay where they are
I heard the faster we fall in love
the faster it will end
That’s why I haven’t approach you
so I can love you forever
Love comes so sudden like the tide
yet I will be patient
In hopes that when you finally wake up
the love will expand like a pair of wings
Don’t fret if you haven’t fell in love
God has taught me to wait
I’ll wait for love to flow like a stream
in order to promise you
To exchange my life for love
I want to hold you so badly
that’s why I’m praying
Before the good times come
to walk alongside with you
In this journey we call life
Through good times and bad
In sickness and in health
We’ll account for them all
Turns out the closer I get
The more I’ll cherish this kiss
And the reason I’m waiting is so
I can cover for you
Love comes so sudden like the tide
yet I will be patient
In hopes that when you finally wake up
the love will expand like a pair of wings
Don’t fret if you haven’t fell in love
God has taught me to wait
I’ll wait for love to flow like a stream
in order to promise you
To exchange my life for love
To learn love through patience
I’ll send my love letters to my heart
In hopes I’ll learn to lean on God
Tamed love is more exciting
Even the world will not change
Time will wait forever
Till the day you’re willing
In order to promise you
that boundless love
I’ll use silence to awaken love
You’ll use anticipation as your response
We’ll walk until we begin to love


4 comments:

  1. Not all couples have happy endings, mostly not. We only look into the present rather than the future. We also make promises but who knows what will happen after that. But what must we know is the happiness moment even since we know each other and so on.

    i personally think pains is essential in a relationship. No matter how painful it is or even if its killing you, we must endure it until we found someone to heal our broken-heart.

    Human is a weak creature. Sad memory tend to remember clearly but happiness seems abit foggy whenever u try to think about it. For that we must have love, friends and family.

    Accept who you are and give yourself a chance to love or beloved again. Dont be feared and keep smiling :)

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  2. thanks anonymous, but is it fair to let someone to heal our broken heart or we heal it ourselves?

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  3. This is your own free will. we cant decide which is better until we try it. but i will choose to let someone heal my heart. Even u can heal yrself but is incomplete bcoz u are alone. U still have negative thoughts like why do they can be so happy together and why not me. something like that~

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  4. thanks for your thought, so is your heart healed? = )

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