When love comes

I have no idea why some people just like to tease about singlehood.

I have been through heartbreak, disappointment and hurt but what I’ve got in return is just brouhaha and not even a single bit of a compliment to me for being tough.

I know I was dumped and fell in love with wrong guys along the way, whats up with that?  Maybe that’s why they have a reason to target me as a laughing stock.

Time really flies huh?

Without my realization, I have been single for nine months now. So how long should I wait for the next relationship to come?

I have no idea. Perhaps, I would stay single for a long period and even years, as relationship is not like simply buying a shirt in the shop. I know it is hard to deal with your feeling, trust me, you will be blinded and get carried away with feeling and that feeling will lead you to fall in love with the wrong person which eventually leads to heartbreak. Instead, it encompasses time to develop the understanding and the assurance that the person is the one that you have been looking for.

Gay circle is unfortunately flooded with shallow minds. I guess you and I also share the common experience that someone that barely knows you confesses to you to be your another half.

I really do get envy when I look at those lovey dovey pictures in Facebook. I always ask myself, why they are so happy, whereas for me I’m always the emo queen. Does fate favour them more or maybe God is testing my patience and He is saving the best for last for me?

Seriously, I have green eyes whenever I’m checking out those travelling pictures, they look so happy! Whereas for me, it’s disastrous as every planned escape for me will be broken promises. Really, to avoid empty promises, now I’m really considering to do travelling alone.

Anyhow, please don’t fall in love with a person that you barely know. Do consider people who have been there for you all along. Maybe they don’t have the pretty face but what matter the most is their sincerity right?

July is coming, so it is the month that someone will enter into my life or maybe he has always been in my life all along?

 I will be patiently waiting. Like the song by Sammi Cheng 

鄭秀文 “不要驚動愛情　Do Not Disturb Love”

I love this song so much as it embraces both spiritual and love. Lucky me, I managed to find the lyric and its meaning in English.

很想輕撫你 所以避開你 寧願用距離 去令你好奇 迴避過眼神 先偷偷喘氣 吩咐手臂 放在原地 傳聞浪漫太快 愛戀都走得快 才會遲遲未步向你 說一世愛護你 情太過洶湧像深海 而我卻會忍耐 但求來日你醒過來 這份情像翅膀打開 還沒有相戀別意外 神教會我等待 待情流像細水 才去承諾你 拿一生兌換愛 很想給擁抱 所以在禱告 求甜蜜以前 帶著你慢步 遊歷過旅途 等一天終老 生老病死 一起細數 原來慢慢靠近 更珍惜這一吻 而我停留是為了你 要給予你護蔭 情太過洶湧像深海 而我卻會忍耐 但求來日你醒過來 這份情像翅膀打開 還沒有相戀別意外 神教會我等待 待情流像細水 才去承諾你 拿一生兌換愛 能為愛戀學習按奈 情信寄進心內 但求能學會倚靠神 愛被馴服過更精采 連地老天荒亦不更改 時間永遠等待 等你情願那天 才去承諾你 無止境那份愛 我用沈默叫醒愛情 你用期待做你反應 繼續行近直至開始愛

I want to hold you that’s why I avoided you I rather use distance to pique your curiosity I avoid meeting your eyes so I can catch my breath I ordered my arms to stay where they are I heard the faster we fall in love the faster it will end That’s why I haven’t approach you so I can love you forever Love comes so sudden like the tide yet I will be patient In hopes that when you finally wake up the love will expand like a pair of wings Don’t fret if you haven’t fell in love God has taught me to wait I’ll wait for love to flow like a stream in order to promise you To exchange my life for love I want to hold you so badly that’s why I’m praying Before the good times come to walk alongside with you In this journey we call life Through good times and bad In sickness and in health We’ll account for them all Turns out the closer I get The more I’ll cherish this kiss And the reason I’m waiting is so I can cover for you Love comes so sudden like the tide yet I will be patient In hopes that when you finally wake up the love will expand like a pair of wings Don’t fret if you haven’t fell in love God has taught me to wait I’ll wait for love to flow like a stream in order to promise you To exchange my life for love To learn love through patience I’ll send my love letters to my heart In hopes I’ll learn to lean on God Tamed love is more exciting Even the world will not change Time will wait forever Till the day you’re willing In order to promise you that boundless love I’ll use silence to awaken love You’ll use anticipation as your response We’ll walk until we begin to love