Goodbye 2013

The million dollar question of 2013 is got to be "what does the fox say?".

Last year we have Gangnam Style and this year, the million dollar question has taken the cyberspace by storm.

Don't forget we have learnt some new words/terms in 2013 : twerking (thanks to Miley Cyrus), yolo and selfies. 

What a year it has been. 2012 was a mournful year, 2013 I brushed off the dust and I stood up. Indeed, it was a turning point for me in 2013. 

First of all, I took a giant leap out from the comfort zone. Yes, I changed my job but I'm still in the same industry. You know when it was already close to four years, your daily tasks at work would be a mundane routine for you. Feeling demotivated, so I changed my job. A lot of people got me wrong that I was offered with a windfall salary for the switch. Trust me, it wasn't.

The most defining moment of 2013 has to be my maiden trip to Disneyland Hong Kong. It was a dream come true for me to meet Mickey Mouse. Words couldn't describe the feeling when I had the first glance of The Cinderella's castle. 

Friends come and go. If you're close to me, you will notice that I never hang out with that person who I used to call him BFF. Well, BFF no more coz I would not I bother a person who is arrogant, super gay and whoring for attention. I believe my decision is just and right to keep a distance away from him.

Anyway, let me check my 2013 resolutions.

• To have a new environment for my career advancement. I'm sure it's bout time for me to bring the curtain down. (Done)
• My car is old and sometimes, it does look like a taxi, well it's the same car with the KL taxi and same colour as well!! In 2013, Alvin will have his own Diva Mobil. (Postponed. Property first. BTW, i'm currently using my brother's old car)
• Travelling - i always want to do travelling so much but i don't really have the time. This year definitely, I will find some space and time for myself. I'm planning to do twice this year. Travelling as in overseas travelling - one is with my mom; i'm looking around Beijing or Shanghai  The other is with my friend or alone and God knows where i'm going (Went to HK and that's it. Okay, bonding time with my mom next year)
• I think i have rest enough in 2012 and my broken heart is almost fully mended. God's willing, if all above resolutions do happen, if fate allows, it will be a humble honour for me to have a partner. But a choosy person like me, it will take ages for me to find someone. Maybe i should listen to my 'sister', loosen up a bit and open up my heart. ( don't give a shit. Enjoying being Taylor Swift at the moment throughout the year) 

Before i heave a sigh to bid farewell to 2013 and welcoming 2014 with hope and joy, let me end a note with this:

I read the rules before i broke them, i broke the chains before they chocked me out and i pay close attention, really learn the code. I learned to read the map before i hit the road. I had bad habits but i dropped them, i had opponents but i knocked them out, i climbed the highest mountains, i swum the coldest seas, there ain't a thing i've faced that's been too much for me.

There you have it, my last entry of 2013. Like every year, let's have JibJab to conclude the defining moments of 2013:

Sexiest Boys Alive in 2013

It's a love-hate situation when i write this entry.

I love it because Guys=love, simple.

I hate it because i blog about the same old entry last year, it means that i'm a year older and a closer turning into an old faggot. Don't look at me!!

Okay, enough for the drama. So People Magazine named Adam Levine as The Most Sexiest Man Alive in 2013. I couldn't agree more because he is so cute. He is the reason that i watch The Voice.That's why he was in my list last year. Can the lead singer from Maroon 5 mark his name another round  this year? Let's scroll down and see.

Ladies and gentlemen, hold on tight for the Sexiest Boys Alive in 2013!!!

Hemsworth Brothers

I was suprised that most of my friends didnt't know that Gale Hawthorne (Liam Hemsworth) from Hunger Games and Thor (Chris Hemsworth) are brothers. Don't they look alike? And Liam was Marley Cyrus's fiance but things didnt work out eventually and that is why she is a wrecking ball right now. If you were given a choice, would you choose Liam or Chris? For me, well, you know my type.

Eddie Peng

He was in my list last year and i guess you wouldn't have an issue if i put him again this year. I watched his movie Unbeatable this year and it was a pain in my heart. It broke my heart everytime i watched him being punched in the MMA ring. How could a good looking guy like him could be beaten up? And i love the part where he 'piggy back' his drunken father back to their home. Sweet.

Chi Lam

Good looking and he flies planes and he is a captain - want me to say more? Kudos to TVB for choosing Chi Lam for the role Captain Koo coz it was all perfect. I always had this fantasy that my partner would be a pilot and after watching Triump in the Skies II, i didn't need to fantasize anymore. I just love Chi Lam's wittiness in the series and that's the attributes of my future partner that i have been looking for!

Zayn Malik from One Direction

I'm not a bimbo for loving One Direction. I love their songs and most of all, i love Zayn Malik. Don't you think this English-Pakistani lad is cute? But this year, he broke million of young girls' hearts as he announced his engagement with Perrie Edwards.

Justin Timberlake 

Once again, he brought sexy back in 2013 and taught us to dress in suit and tie to kill. For me, he is not that heartthrob kinda appeal but i really admire his taste in fashion. I just want to look like him to be honest with you. Alas, i don't have the fortune to own his wardrobe.

Franco Brothers

Both James Franco and his younger brother Dave Franco were doing well this year. James was in the Oz The Great and Powerful while Dave was in the Now You See Me. I like James ever since Spiderman coz he is hot and two, he always has the smile that forms wrinkles around his eyes - so cute. But i like Dave more because physically, he is really my type.

Tom Hiddleston

I prefer Loki more than Thor in the Marvel movie. Loki has more to offer in terms of his sense of humour. I know, i'm attracted to guys with sense of humour. 

Chris Pine

I've been liking him since the movie Just My Luck with Lindsay Lohan. I like him even more in Star Trek. Yet again, i have this preference on guys who fly planes or jets or Enterprise lol...He's not that very good looking but he is rather charming for me.

Mario Maurer

My college sweetheart. Indeed, i was crazy over him during Love Of Siam. Come on, who can resist his mixed-parentage look? Though his face is bit rounded now with his fading boyish charm but he is still very good looking. Pan Asian is definitely my type.

Henry Cavill

I started to doubt my sexual position from versatile to bottom when i watched Man of Steel. I wished i was Amy Adams, feeling so secured with Superman beside me. Don't you think the Superman is such a hottie? I know i sound bottom here but  i don't care.

There you have it guys, my list of sexist boys alive in 2013. If you don't agree with my list, you can just click the exit button lol... see you again next year!!

Fluffy little rascals

I'm a cat person more than dog. So let me share with you the pictures of cute fluffy cats. Please meet Nate and Rain.

Innocent bunny or playboy bunny?

As the Christmas spirit dies down, the other celebration awaits. I love the next celebration because i can spend quality time with my family. I hate it at the same time as this is when  the spending goes out of control. Yes, i'm talking about Chinese New Year and it's just a month away. Are you excited about it?

I'm still in the Christmas mood so whenever I hear CNY songs, i would like question myself "is this too soon?"

Don't forget we have New Year coming up. Yay! This is when you make empty promises to yourself. Yes, you make  all those New Year's resolutions but tell me, which one of those you were really committed to materialize?

Personally, there are no agendas for me just yet in 2014 coz my resolutions in 2013 were barely fulfilled. So to avoid breaking promises to myself, it would be better if make no any resolutions for next year.

But there is a resolution that i wanted to make every year but i wouldn't dare to do so - to get a love partner. Well, there are two reasons that i don't want a relationship.

First, someone is lingering in my heart for past two years and it's kinda hard to find someone who could break his benchmark.

The other reason is that i still want to play around (it's up to you how you want to define "play"). I always believe in this philosophy "play as crazy as you can when you are single, once you attached, be good".

So i'm still single and i don't have anyone to report to or under any confinement of being a lover, so i can play whatever i want.

Having said that, i'm not a mr casanova who goes around the playground and break people's heart. Coz i believe what comes around goes around, yeah the karma thingy. But sometimes in this gay circle, it's like a game you know. You need to be smart ass to win the game and survive in this community. If you're a loser, please don't hate the player, just blame the game itself which is so cruel.

So in 2014,  should i repent and be a good boy and hooked up with someone for a relationship OR should i suit up and keep the game rolling?

To be honest, i'm lonely sometimes, even jealousy will visit me sometimes...life is already so difficult and you're facing alone. Sometimes i have wishful thinking that...let Yoga Lin conclude this entry..

Merry Christmas

It was rather dishearterning when i scrolled down my Facebook and read all those lonely lonely posts. I felt you guys because i was once like you before. It really sucks to be alone and lonely at home when the whole world is celebrating.

Please don't be. Christmas is not about feast, is not about big celebration. Though matter of fact is the celebration of the Jesus Christ birth , why not we take this significant day to reflect ourselves how blessed we are from His grace and blessing. Please don't emo today, let our hearts rejoice in Him today.

I know sometimes you wish that person could spend the Christmas Eve. To be honest, i also wished that he could celebrate the Christmas Eve with me. But sometimes you have to wake up and realize it won't happen and move on. There is no such thing called "perfect ending" on perfect day. Please have a litlle bit of self-dignity, screw him and move on.  

Anyway, i didn't have feast or major celebration this year. I just had Bubba Gump and Starbucks and that was it. Further than that, well, you have to ask me personally. I wonder who was the mysterious guy who celebrated Xmas with me...hmmmp....

So back to my Christmas Eve, so i was sitting at the Starbucks around 9.30 pm and i was nearly washed away. Washed away by waves of sea creature which categorized as clams or lala in Malaysia's colloquial. Seriously,i had no idea where they came from and they were congregating at the main entrance of Sunway Pyramid. I was pretty sure that they were there to do countdown. Hello, this is not new year, what to countdown? Countdown to the birth of Jesus? I bet that they had no idea what Christmas is all about. Maybe thier answer would go something like celebrating the existence of Santa Clause? Since they like to countdown so much, why never countdown for Chinese New Year? 

I shouldn't complain that much on Christmas Day. So since today it's Christmas, do light up your heart and home with joy, Merry Christmas.

If I Die Young

I never really bothered about my health until recently.

So I went to clinic as I was down with migraine for past few days. The GP checked my blood presssure and the result was simply jaw-dropping. The doctor looked at me without any verbal cues then she rechecked my blood pressure again. Then, she flipped my previous medical records.

"Alvin, do you know you have high blood pressure?", she asked.

I was like WTH! Since when i had this medical problem?

My reading was 145 mm Hg whereas the normal reading would be below 120. It was pretty bad reading as any reading betwen 140-159 mm Hg would be Stage 1 hypertension.

So what the heck is hypertension?

Hypertension or commonly known as high blood pressure is a chronic ( i hate the word 'chronic'- the connotation is so negative which implies that gonna die fast) medical condition in which the blood pressure in arteries is elevated. Consequently, the heart has to work harder to pump the blood to circulate to whole body through vessels. To make matter worst, hypertension is a major risk for stroke, heart attacks and heart failure.

Sounds so serious right? Occasionally, i had this buzzing or hissing in the ears but i never really give a damn about it. My fingers sometimes would be numb if my heartbeats went unusually fastl. I never knew these are the symptoms for high blood pressure.

It's not end of the world for me as the best way to overcome hypertension is by adopting a healthier lifestyle which i'm struggling and reluctant to do so.

Anyhow, life is something unpredictable. We don't dictate our mortality. God is the only who will dictate.We are just His subjects playing guesses on what is ahead of us.  What if i die young and God calls me home? Will i leave this world with all the glories and pride or regrets and disappointment?

Actually there is not a single regret in life. I believe i have been a leading a righteous life although i'm gay. I believe we should take it easy in life because nothing is ever as it seems.

If i could turn back time to once again recalling the defining moments of my life, definitely, i would go back to my childhood. I was so happy back then without any worries and with abundance of love.

Let me end this entry with my favourite childhood song below. Everytime i hear this song, i would recall myself in my dad's car and asked him to turn the volume higher coz i loved this so much back then. As what Michael Learns To Rock sings: sometimes i wish i was a sleeping child, being covered and keeping the world away that is so wild.

Christmases When You Were Mine

CareerCast has listed the 5 Most Stressful Job in 2013. And i'm not suprised that my profession is in the list. In the public eye, you may see us in glamorous lifestyle like dining in the finest restaurants and rubbing shoulders with prominent people in town but at the workplace, we embrace the philosophy of FML to be honest.

It was a rather tormenting week for me this week. The onslaught of emails which would be deadly if i didn't read thoroughly. And don't forget, PR is a thankless job. The client will merely thank you if the coverage is in Kosmo full-page and as you gear up with your running shoes to the victory lap, the client will pull you back and ask "What about The Star?"

Nevertheless, though i was secluded myself in the war room, it was touching to see my colleagues to buy me food, drinks, fruits and even words of encouragement that meant so much to me.

After the dust settle next week, i guess it's time for me to do some retail therapy for Christmas. I know i sound like a bimbo here but i need some therapy to complement the energy that i have been channeled to my work. Just joking, yes, i'll be doing massive shopping but it's for Chinese New Year.

So where will you be for Christmas' Eve?

You always wanted that very person to spend the night before Christmas with you but you know it won't happen. So as the days draw closer, you expect that your Christmas wish comes true but it flies away from the reach, so you run away in your sleep and dream of Christmas wish.

But when you wake up to reality you just want to take down the mistletoe.

I know this shouldn't be a lonely Christmas but there were Christmases when you were mine. I've been doing fine without you. However, as the night gets colder and as when everyone is celebrating, for me it's just a lonely time because I miss you the most on Christmas. I wonder where you will be on 24th night,

There were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight cause there were Christmases when you were mine.

Perfect Christmas

Gosh, my work is extremely stressful lately until my Christmas mood is literally shadowed by my workload. I thought December supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year but why FML is apparent on my forehead now?

I have barely 8 to 9 hours before i'm preoccupied myself with my work again, so let's talk about Christmas.

I'm pretty sure the common question that forwarded to you would be mostly  "How are you going to celebrate your Christmas?"

Some may be bold enough to fight for a place at those fancy restaurants. Some may rather want private moment and just spend the silent night at home. 

Let me see, for past three years, I celebrated my Christmas at restaurants with feasts which was hurtful for my pocket. So this year, it would be great if my partner could unleash his culinary expertise and cook a simple Christmas dinner for me at home. Nah, i don't have any partner. 

The bothering question is not where but with whom. 

Don't talk about me, what about you? Lonely Christmas? Romantic Christmas with your another half or quality time with family?

I know who is on your mind whenever i raise this topic. But i have stopped dreaming. It won't happen. I don't think I'm lucky enough to celebrate with him coz you know, he has a better significant that worthy of his time on Christmas Eve. 

Not emo over it. Just getting over it. Or maybe there is someone better pop up underneath the mistletoe in my room? I know words on the streets will be heard that Santa's coming, reindeer flying through the sky so high with the sleigh bells ring up the night. But i won't be bothered because my Christmas present couldn't be found in his sleigh. Coz the greatest gift that there could be that wrapped underneath my Christmas tree; would be the same my whole life through - I'd spend the perfect Christmas with you.

Back To December

As the December wind blows outside and as the children choir sings the evergreen caroles serenading the joyful people, everyone is so happy like God put a smile on their faces except for me.

Cause I miss you.

What a way to start my post. Yes, though I miss someone but not to the extend until depression. However, I've got the feeling that emotional breakdown will be visiting me soon as Christmas is drawing closer.

I used to love Christmas very much but it seems it's meaningless for this year. Maybe I'm really too preoccupied with my work or maybe I know that I won't get what I want for Christmas so why bother.

Until now I still don't have any date for Christmas' Eve. Come to think of it most of my friends are attached so I don't think that they have the slightest concern for me. Not complaining coz Yuletide is very significant, so it will be ideal to celebrate with your loved one.

So if you are reading this blog, please date me on 24/12. I won't bite but I'm

just a little bit of Taylor Swift. If you ever break my heart, I will write you a song. 

Please ignore the paragraph above. 

Christmas is very significant for me, so I'll keep it for a very significant person.

If you are close to me, you will know who is that significant person. I know it won't be happening coz things have changed. He wouldn't care about me anymore.

So I'm all alone writing this lonely blog for lonely souls out there. 

Since I won't have that significant person for this Christmas, so Santa, there's only one wish from me; can I have  your naughty boys list?

Girl On Fire!

I never thought that i would had the chance to watch Alicia Keys singing If I Ain't Got You right in front of me. Yes, i bought the ticket for Alicia Key's Set The World On Fire World Tour in Kuala Lumpur.

Although initially, it was a terrible experience for this concert. Coz i was at Kesas Highway's junction to Stadium Bukit Jalil and my gosh, the jam was so terrible - so terrible until it consumed me an hour to get into the car park. I was pretty sure that the parking was managed by dumbasses coz they only opened two gates for the car park. Come on, you were expecting thousand upon thousand of Alicia Keys' fans and they only opened only two gates?! Gotta be ludicrous.

Anyway, back to the concert and my God, i know she is pretty but i never knew she is that pretty in person! I don't want to blog so much about her concert as i'm pretty sure you can read the news in the mainstream media. The concert was superb and i never will ever forget the moment when the whole audience sang the Fallin' with her - she just brought the house down!

Some of my friends were surprised that i forked out money to purchase her ticket. Normally, i would wait for free tickets) but for Alicia Keys was exceptional case. I have been fan of hers since her debut single Fallin' back when i was Form 3.

This mother of one could sing and her songs, can't deny it, simply marvelous. Aside from her talent in singing, one thing that makes me adore her so much is that she writes very well and so profoundly. I have to admit this, when I'm emo (as always), i would listen to her songs and it gives me so much inspiration to write so much in this very pathetic blog of mine.

I guess she already melted your heart with the evergreen If I Ain't Got You. To share with you, the guy in front of me at the concert, just bought the ticket to see her perform this song live. This proves how beautiful this song is.

I guess most of us will be oblivious the content lyric of her songs as we would be carried away by her music itself. Let me share with you, few of the lines from her songs that simply make me awed:

"I know some people search the world to find something like what we have, i know people will try, try to divide something so real, so till the end of time, i'm telling you that in the world; no one"  - No One

"Anybody could have told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart, so rather than hold on to a broken dream, I'll just hold on to love. And I can find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight, I'll make it without you tonight" - Sleeping With A Broken Heart 

"All the king's horses and all the king's men; they came marching through, they offered the world just to have what we got, but i found the world in you" - Not Even The King

"Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame had to grab my heart back, God knows something had to change, i thought you'd be happy, i found the one thing i need. Why you mad? It's just a brand new kinda me" -  Brand New Me

"When I'm breaking down and i can't be found. As i started to get weak, cause no one knows me underneath these clothes but i can fly" -  Superwoman

"Some people think that the physical things define what's within" If I Ain't Got You